Unapologetic

When I was a little girl there was one fear that stuck out among others. Storms. More than anything the wind, it worried me. It gave me that "uneasy" feeling in my tummy. On the other side of one wall of my room is the porch. My porch is sort of closed in so when the wind would swirl around inside the porch it caused a howling sound. Which scared the living day-lights out of me because it sounded like a tornado. Tornadoes were probably my biggest fear of all, next to being away from my mama. As I've stated recently, things are changing in my life. Even my association with the wind is changing. Now, on any given day (that my hair isn't supposed to look good) you'll find me with the windows rolled down in my car. Feeling the wind against my face is like a kiss on the cheek from God himself. Hearing the wind howl at night is like hearing God speak directly to me. When life is complicated and the uneasy feeling is there, all it takes is feeling the wind to remind me t...

If it were up to me the words "skinny" and "fat" would be permanently erased from our minds. All my life I've been told I'm too small, scrawny, boney, thin enough to blow away, and things of that sort, like it was okay. Is that really any different than being called fat? It's the same thing, just the opposite end of the spectrum. That fact is that being called fat or skinny, either way, is so wrong and you should NEVER let those terms define you.  Being happy and healthy are what matter. I've always struggled with feeling too skinny and too small. We live in a society where a Kim K booty is what is viewed as attractive, and if any part of you is flat then no part of you is pretty. If you ask my opinion that is a load of garbage. Kim K is beautiful in her own way, just like you, and just like me. Comparison is the thief of joy. Please please please love your body. Woman or man, boy or girl, old or young. LOVE YOURSELF!!! 

Yesterday I came to my senses. I completely came to my selfish, and unreasonable, senses. This is my favorite time of year. The holiday love that seems to infect everyone, the music, the hot chocolate, the shopping, the cooking, the decorations being put up through the small town I live in, and simply the feeling in the air. It all makes me SO overwhelmed with happiness, but yesterday I had a moment of weakness that brought tears to my eyes and a sick feeling sat in my stomach. Every year I have family and friends asking me, "What do you want for Christmas?" and "Write me a Christmas List Emma." The last few years I've found myself struggling to write out a Christmas List when it was the time to, because I couldn't find anything I want enough for someone to spend money on me. So I go LOOKING, and I go SEARCHING, for gifts for people to give me. I am a selfish person. I am such a selfish person when there are children and people within probably less than ...

In the last year I've dealt with some personal experiences, regarding the people I considered friends, that have helped me have better judgement when choosing the people I spend my time with. I suppose everyone comes to a time in their life when they have this realization. Well...I've come to mine. This is for anyone and everyone from children, preteens, teenagers, to adults, or even if you're 99, this pertains to you.  I recently read a quote by Booker T. Washington that said, "Associate yourself with people of good quality, for it is better to be alone than in bad company". Reading that was like getting punched square in the face, and this is why. I've made it a personal goal to work as hard as I can every day to better myself as a young woman. To not be judgmental in any way, to be gracious and understanding, to try my very best to not worry (the biggest obstacle for me), to show love even in the most frustrating situations, and to stay focused on the path ...

I'm reading the book of Job in the Bible right now (I'm not big on reading, but I do love reading the bible). I think I came across my new favorite verse this morning while I was reading. It's Job 37:14 and it says, "Stop and consider the wonderful miracles of God!". So now, set aside all of your problems. Forget where you are, forget all of the mess you may be dealing with. Take the next 10 - 15 minutes and put all of your focus on the good, the blessings, and the miracles. Put all of your attention on dwelling on the positive and chunking everything negative out the window. You have the power to train your thoughts to be good, and you will always see the bright side! Start using that power. Bottom line: each of us could be doing much worse than we are and God wants us to acknowledge that we're blessed even when we reach our lowest of lows. He will always see us through. Never, ever, doubt His ability. 

Okay, I know I know, a lot of my recent blogs have been super serious. So today to lighten it up a little I want to share one of my all-time-favorite quotes with you!  When I was young I read a quote that said "A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor". Those words have stuck with me ever since I read them! The older I've gotten and the more I've thought about it the more sense it has made to me. For me it means a lot of things, but the most important thing it means to me is that it can help you bring light and positivity to any situation. It doesn't matter how rough life gets, the struggles make you stronger. The best part is that it's so very true.  Remember...anything you go through makes you a stronger, better person. Give Hebrews 6:19 a read today! :)  xoxo - Emma 

I've tried to write a blog for the last 2 weeks. I've tried and tried, but nothing I would write made much sense. There's something that's weighed so very heavy on my heart and mind for a while now, so I thought I'd take that inspiration and write about it. Here goes nothing... Proverbs 19:21 says, "Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails." This Bible verse has been my rock and place that I turn to when I struggle with what I thought was the plans and direction for my life. The last month of my life has been one of great realization and a huge lesson of putting all of my trust in God. Sometimes we have to learn the hard way, I suppose. Nevertheless, no matter who you are, or what your situation is, the most comforting thing to know is that The Creator of the universe has a plan for you. There's a purpose for you. His knowledge is far better than ours. So, even though it's incredibly difficult to trust what...