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What Self-Love Did For Me

Some time around 2013 I wrote my very first blog. As I told you before in my latest post, this was an outlet for me to be an encouragement. Over time, however, it turned into a personally therapeutic pastime. I found myself filling my drafts folder with things I wanted to say, but never had the guts to share. I would write about experiences that hurt me, taught me, broke me, and molded me. I never could quite press the publish button. At one point I deactivated my whole blog site to where I was the only person who could view it. It seemed that I needed my own advice the most at times. Long story short, I became very frustrated with myself that every time my fingers started to type what my heart felt it was the furthest thing from pretty and encouraging. It didn't feel like much of an encouragement for others. So I deleted all of the drafts and put the blog to rest. All of these confusing feelings I had about writing and publishing my life were because I got in my own way by letti...
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Why Did This Take So Long?

Let's get down to the nitty gritty. I have been staring at this dang blog for 4 years now. Officially, 4 years. Cause, you know, it's 2018. (I don't know how that happened). Nevertheless, I feel like the time between 2014 and the present has taught me many important lessons that will hopefully benefit someone reading this. Reasons it has taken me so long to pick up my blog could be labeled fear, worry, lies (to myself that my voice isn't important), and confusion (about whether anyone will hear my voice even if it is important). I started this blog somewhere around 2012 as a way to be an encouragement to my friends, and even to those who came across it that I didn't know. I was getting several thousand views on my blog when I found myself too busy to write. I even had friends, who I had no idea were paying attention, text me and ask me to please not stop writing. Then fast forward to now when everyone and their mama's best friend's son's girlfriend has a...
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The Wind

When I was a little girl there was one fear that stuck out among others. Storms. More than anything the wind, it worried me. It gave me that "uneasy" feeling in my tummy. On the other side of one wall of my room is the porch. My porch is sort of closed in so when the wind would swirl around inside the porch it caused a howling sound. Which scared the living day-lights out of me because it sounded like a tornado. Tornadoes were probably my biggest fear of all, next to being away from my mama. As I've stated recently, things are changing in my life. Even my association with the wind is changing. Now, on any given day (that my hair isn't supposed to look good) you'll find me with the windows rolled down in my car. Feeling the wind against my face is like a kiss on the cheek from God himself. Hearing the wind howl at night is like hearing God speak directly to me. When life is complicated and the uneasy feeling is there, all it takes is feeling the wind to remind me t...
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Skinny & Fat

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If it were up to me the words "skinny" and "fat" would be permanently erased from our minds. All my life I've been told I'm too small, scrawny, boney, thin enough to blow away, and things of that sort, like it was okay. Is that really any different than being called fat? It's the same thing, just the opposite end of the spectrum. That fact is that being called fat or skinny, either way, is so wrong and you should NEVER let those terms define you.  Being happy and healthy are what matter. I've always struggled with feeling too skinny and too small. We live in a society where a Kim K booty is what is viewed as attractive, and if any part of you is flat then no part of you is pretty. If you ask my opinion that is a load of garbage. Kim K is beautiful in her own way, just like you, and just like me. Comparison is the thief of joy. Please please please love your body. Woman or man, boy or girl, old or young. LOVE YOURSELF!!! 
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What Are You Giving?

Yesterday I came to my senses. I completely came to my selfish, and unreasonable, senses. This is my favorite time of year. The holiday love that seems to infect everyone, the music, the hot chocolate, the shopping, the cooking, the decorations being put up through the small town I live in, and simply the feeling in the air. It all makes me SO overwhelmed with happiness, but yesterday I had a moment of weakness that brought tears to my eyes and a sick feeling sat in my stomach. Every year I have family and friends asking me, "What do you want for Christmas?" and "Write me a Christmas List Emma." The last few years I've found myself struggling to write out a Christmas List when it was the time to, because I couldn't find anything I want enough for someone to spend money on me. So I go LOOKING, and I go SEARCHING, for gifts for people to give me. I am a selfish person. I am such a selfish person when there are children and people within probably less than ...
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Don't Be Afraid To Sit Alone

In the last year I've dealt with some personal experiences, regarding the people I considered friends, that have helped me have better judgement when choosing the people I spend my time with. I suppose everyone comes to a time in their life when they have this realization. Well...I've come to mine. This is for anyone and everyone from children, preteens, teenagers, to adults, or even if you're 99, this pertains to you.  I recently read a quote by Booker T. Washington that said, "Associate yourself with people of good quality, for it is better to be alone than in bad company". Reading that was like getting punched square in the face, and this is why. I've made it a personal goal to work as hard as I can every day to better myself as a young woman. To not be judgmental in any way, to be gracious and understanding, to try my very best to not worry (the biggest obstacle for me), to show love even in the most frustrating situations, and to stay focused on the path ...
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Stop & Consider

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I'm reading the book of Job in the Bible right now (I'm not big on reading, but I do love reading the bible). I think I came across my new favorite verse this morning while I was reading. It's Job 37:14 and it says, "Stop and consider the wonderful miracles of God!". So now, set aside all of your problems. Forget where you are, forget all of the mess you may be dealing with. Take the next 10 - 15 minutes and put all of your focus on the good, the blessings, and the miracles. Put all of your attention on dwelling on the positive and chunking everything negative out the window. You have the power to train your thoughts to be good, and you will always see the bright side! Start using that power. Bottom line: each of us could be doing much worse than we are and God wants us to acknowledge that we're blessed even when we reach our lowest of lows. He will always see us through. Never, ever, doubt His ability. 
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